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Friday, December 03, 2004

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 01:41:57 GMT

i've got a new one. cuuuz, was time. everyone is changin'.

www.xanga.com/wilxburn

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 04:11:29 GMT

hi kids. today we'll be playing a little game called survey. are you ready?

last dream:
__it had seth, chloe, and that strange boy with glasses in it. nothing sexual, just talking.
last car ride:
__my mom, from divas
last kiss:
__lets see...third grade
last good cry:
__hmm, almost in p.e. today. i guess monday or something
last missing library book:
__the outsiders, missing right now
last movie seen:
__ice age
last book Read:
__oh, haven't been to the library lately so... The Old Man And The Boy (a book about hunting)
last curse word uttered:
__sheeeet
last beverage drank:
__(thinks hard) yay, capri sun (mountain cooler)
last food consumed:
__cheezit chilli
last crush:
__hmm, long ago. nanu
last tv show watched:
__everybody loves raymond (wasn't watching though)
last item bought:
_oh...!...vanilla coke
last time showered:
__morning
last shoes worn:
__american eagle suede flats
last CD played:
__pepper
last MP3 Downloaded:
__don't do that
last annoyance:
__oooh, feather
last soda drank:
__vanilla coke
last thing written:
__mi nombre no es hermosa
last word(s) spoken:
__i'm going in my room
last trip to the bathroom:
__long ago
last IM:
__now, sethy
last weird encounter:
__ha, today, with feather (or the janitor)
last store shopped at:
__divas
last ice cream eaten:
__vanilla from kaikodo
last time amused:
__now
last time wanting to die:
__yesterday and the day before, and the day before and the day before etc...
last time hugged:
__today, liz
last email you got:
__gramma, today
last time scolded:
__um, can't rememeber *goody goody
last time resentful:
__today, an hour ago
last chair sat in:
__this hard wood chair
last underwear worn:
__black boy-cut undies
last shirt worn:
__american eagle faded tee
last class attended:
__kamalani
last Final taken:
__today, p.e.
last time dancing:
__last night
last poster looked at:
__chris austad (in my room)
last concert attended:
__none
last sexual encounter:
__wow, not really ever, any
last time you sang:
__today, to pepper
last time you filled a survery out:
__now

sometimes i think people don't realize what they're saying.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 01:47:28 GMT

so, i got charged .24 dollars today for text messaging. 2 recieved and 2 sent. but it wasn't even my fault. and then my parents were making me call customer service to see if you can cancel text messaging. which i know you can't. and i was embarassed until helpful mizzzz rouge answered. she was cool, except she sounded like a man recording. yeah. thanks anyway ms. rouge.

today was sorta, extra, monumentaly boring. and that is that! i want to get together with my whole family and have a stay at my house. i mean my whole school family. yeah. a small happy little thing. for everyone to frolick. then i think hmm "my car holds 5 including me". and then i revise and plan. so anyway. some weekend coming up, kay? alright.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 04:10:12 GMT

oh yeah. so. what are we doing this weekend? oh yeah? shoots, we go.

Saturday, November 27, 2004

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 18:50:11 GMT

it was a good weekend. some fun, yes, some fun. mostly bored, until i got lizzy to come to my house (out in the boonies) and so...yeah. we got some pictures for you:

the only semi-decent picture, notice the darkened mole.

we are irresistable, no?

can you give me a R-E-T-A-R-D?

sexy hippy, sunburned

seeeexxxyyy, we sorta got carried away with attractive tantalizing poses!

Laughing to the tunes
Of Pepper and Jack
And dancing like maniacs
With heroin attacks
Being ghetto
Black or white
Fat stomachs
And late nights
Prrrrank calls
And bad dreams
Pictures, 44
And peepee screams
Laying in Macys
By the hat rack
Screaming "help me"
And putting on M.A.C.

Friday, November 26, 2004

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 20:43:53 GMT

it is officially christmas loves. there are carols on the radio and the christmas trees are at KTA and walmart. even ben franklin is setting up. oh, lovely. i am ready to make my little chain counting down the days til christmas. i love this season, and all it brings. other than an overabundance of depression. that sucks.

Don't call me names
It hurts inside
When you yell to my face
I cannot hide.
I want to scream
Tell you I don't want to be me
I want to kill myself
Just to get free.
You run down my face in tears
I quiver and seethe
It hurts so much deep down
I find it hard to breathe.
Don't tell me things
I don't want to hear
Cause I know it is true
These are real tears.

Friday, November 26, 2004

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 02:59:23 GMT

lets count the people that called me chubby in my display pic. do you want to be one of them? cause one of them is missing an arm, or an eye.

i had a lovely satisfying meal. salmon and mashed potatoes. sweet potatoes and a nice salad to go. antipasto, home amde bread, and apple pie a la mode.

i saw an extremely cute boy in a dark, cornflower blue long-sleeve button up shirt and jeans with a slight fade/dirty wash, a beaded/hawaiianish/localish necklace. he had brown hair and was lightly tanned, natural looking, and was such a cutie. oo. a nice thanksgiving meal, for my eyes. they are STUFFED.

i hate the greeby waiters at kaikodo. they always stare and do weird things. there are always hot ones and icky ones. tonight was the gathering of the ickys. especially icky mole guy i have seen there twice. i want to say GO AWAY.

test When you step into a shower, which part of the body do you wash first?
(No Cheating!)
Chest
Face
Armpits
Hair
Privates
Shoulders
Others
Now scroll down and check what/who you are ... this is pretty enlightening!!!

The following describes your character:

CHEST:
You are a practical person, straight forward and do not beat around the bush. To you, convenience is of paramount importance. You hate to be distracted when concentrating and are impatient with people who do not see things your way. You are a good sex partner and willing to try new things. Your best partner in life will be those who chose HAIR.

FACE:
Money is important to you and you will do anything to get it. Integrity and dignity ! is not important. You feel that friends are there to be used and life is one big hassle. Other people find it hard to understand you but you are not concerned as to what they think. Very self-centred person. Below average sex partner as too selfish and tend to be absorbed in self pleasure at the expense of your partner. Your best partner in life will be those who chose PRIVATES and OTHERS.

ARMPITS:
You are a dependable and hard working person. Generally very popular people as you are very down to earth and willing to help others. You tend to get yourself into trouble as you cannot tell whether people are genuine towards you. Trusting type. You make very poor sex partners as you are the working type with average talent. Do not always consider your partner's needs. Your best partner in life will be those who chose SHOULDERS.

HAIR:
Artistic, creative, caring type. Positive thinker. Day dreaming is your hobby but you can achieve what most other people cannot. You will work tirelessly towards goals which are to your liking. You are able to see and understand things others don't. Money, material possessions are not
important. Friends and family are important. You make the Best sex
partners. You are most willing to explore. Especially warm and sensual lovers. You love to please your partner. You value intimate moments with those you love. Talent, intelligence, loyalty, kindness, intuition are your main strengths. Your best partners in life will be those who chose CHEST and PRIVATES.

PRIVATES:
Shy type. You lack self confidence and tend to be misunderstood by others. Find it difficult to share yourself with others. You do not have many friends as others sometime find you boring unresponsive. Perseverance is not your strength and you tend to give up easily and at the first opportunity. However, you make an above average sex partner. You are able to show your true emotions to very few people. But, in sex, you find your inner strengths And you find sex a safe avenue to share your true feelings. Your best partner in life will be those who chose FACE and HAIR.

SHOULDERS:
A born loser. You fail in almost everything that you do. People dislike you and you tend to spend your time alone. Your types have been known to be heavy gamblers and drinkers. You see the world as a living hell. Money and power are also important to you, but your luck will always fail you. You make a lousy sex partner. You will find it difficult to find a partner in
life. Those who chose ARMPITS are your only chance.

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 02:16:07 GMT

hip hip hooray, another fucking holiday.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 05:51:49 GMT

eh, bulleh. stay some shit goin' down.

or not.

i don't know, but i am so frickin' bored i am updating every 5 hours. GD.

someone needs to get a good party together.

for those that needa know...i am freakin' out. this heroin addict is FREAKIN' OUT.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 01:53:13 GMT

coooome on, you expect me to be yours forever. well gd i ain't gunna listen anymore. IT IS MY FRICKING LIFE. go off and shet yourself.

i hide fruit, yeah i am pathetic, oh yeah, i look like a heroin addict. now, aren't those great qualities?